Wedding Belle Blues – Excerpt
For your weekend reading pleasure, author Mia Epsilon shares a tempting little excerpt from Wedding Belle Blues. Enjoy!
EXCERPT – Wedding Belle Blues
Anna slammed the lid on his hand. “What do you mean? I’m not worth the chase?”
“Hey, starving teacher here.” He knocked on the inside of the box and glared at her. “And don’t be ridiculous. Of course you’re worth a chase, but even I can recognize a no win situation regardless if I can’t fully give up on it or you.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” He was hiding something besides his hand in the box. “Robin?”
The liquid blue fire in his eyes singed her as he spoke. “I didn’t give the let’s-forget-this-ever-happened-and-just-be-friends speech. I didn’t stay too afraid to see where our relationship might have gone. No win situation.”
Stunned, she gaped at him. “I thought…but you never said…I mean we’d…”
He just stared at her, face unmoving, his chest rising and falling as his breaths increased. He was, she realized, getting angrier by the second.
She swallowed and tried to find words, any words, to defuse the tension. “I couldn’t bear to think of losing you as my friend. We did the best thing for us.”
“We did the best thing for you.”
“But you…you agreed with me. You said you didn’t want to risk our friendship either.”
“What the hell could I say?” He shot to his feet, knocking the pizza box to the floor. “You didn’t give me a choice. Either be your friend, only your friend, or leave your life.”
“I never said we couldn’t be friends or you had to leave my life.” She whispered the words. Yet it had been close.
“Even now you won’t face it.” He muttered a curse which shocked her with the anger behind it. “Will you? You won’t admit maybe we could have—”
“I faced it the morning after. I’m not an idiot, Robin. When you date a woman, it’s like your skydiving adventures. You have a thrill, anything goes, and it’s awesome and you’re on the high of it all. Then you land and it’s over. You never talk to the woman again, let alone have a friendship with her. I didn’t want our friendship to be over. I still don’t. I can’t give more than I am. I can’t.”
“Why, Anna?” He stopped right in front of her, hands on his hips balled into fists. “Why can’t you give more? Because of Doug Dufuss?”
“No. Because I can’t just have sex with you and then watch you leave!